1918 - 2004

Dreamin'

I think I've finally figured out what I really want to do in my life. Where I want to be, who I want to work for, and such. Its probably the stupidest dream I've ever had, since its so far from likely, but when I think about it, its something I really want to do. I really want to work for Ximian (now Novell). I don't really know why, but that's what I want to do, who I want to work for, and frankly, I don't really care what I do. Being able to work there has turned into a life goal for me. Its so far-fetched and unlikely to happen, any sane person would give up, but I just can't. This is one of those things that I want really badly. The only other time I've ever felt this way is when I think of how important my girlfriend is to me, so that should give you some comparison as to the significance.
Oh well, one can dream right?

What ever happened to Amboy Kelso?

Back in my early college days there was a local bay area band called Amboy Kelso. I saw them perform about 5 or 6 times during the first two years of college, from 2000-2002. I bought their album "Drive", and to this day, continue to listen to it, and enjoy their unique folk/fiddle sounds. Unfortunately, it seems the band has gone their separate ways, however a quick google search for 'amboy kelso' turns up Scott Hay's website (Scott was the lead singer behind Amboy Kelso. And Scott has graciously posted all of Amboy Kelso's recordings for download! If you're interested in exploring some new and great music, I suggest downloading some of their songs. I'm most familiar with the songs off 'Drive', though the Amboy Kelso song that made me love their music was "Pretty Girls". I recommend "Stay with me", "Rest beside your heart" and "Sleep on". Those 3 are probably my favorite. Just thought I'd plug a great band that has some great sounds. Hope you like it!

Raining on a workday

I got chastised today for calling in to work today and asking if I could work from home because I didn't feel comfortable driving the 60-70 miles down to San Jose, so I could sit in my cubicle and do the same thing I could do here. Its news to me, but apparently its "unprofessional" to feel uncomfortable about risking your life with all those maniacs who drive 75mph on greasy highway roads. Is there a handbook or something with all this shit in it? So I can read it and not have to get these little phone calls from my temp agency rep. Since my boss didn't talk to me directly, he went through my temp agency rep. How the hell was I supposed to know that this is unprofessional. A lot of my frustration about this ties back to the lack of a future at this company, and me feeling like they don't care about me, so why should I care about them. I get chastised for something silly like this. I feel like they're treating me like a child. And now of course, I feel like I'm somehow a wimp or a weakling for not feeling comfortable driving in the rain. But I feel its a significant increase in your chance of an accident (and therefore, death), and me driving to San Jose is not worth it, especially when my "employer" company has no vested interested in me, and will more than likely just let me go after my 15-month limit is up. What's the point?

Damn fool idealistic crusade

I think I'm too damned idealistic when it comes to searching for a job. I have grand views of me having some great job that I really enjoy; of me working for a company, and feeling like I make a real difference there, and that I have a future with that company. The reality of the situation is very different, and I need to just accept that fact. That my job will always suck, and it will never give me the satisfaction and sense of self-worth that I hope for. Its tough those, considering I spend most of my life at work. Its hard to accept the fact that most of my life is considered useless and unsatisfying. If that's the case, what's the point?
And yes, I'm blogging again.

Darwin was right

If this article does a good job at helping to prove evolution. So phooey on all you nay-sayers.

Woopee we're all gonna die!

I recently discovered a wonderful gem of a song by Country Joe McDonald. This song is so morbidly hilarious... and disturbingly similar to today's situation. Just s/Vietnam/Iraq/... there's a little bit of geeky political statements for you. The song's called the "Fixin' to Die Rag". A true classic. One of the best protest songs I've ever heard. Just wanted to share this bit o' history with the world.

Don't forget Poland

As our honorable leader proclaims, "You forgot Poland". And yes Poland, you are not forgotten.

Weekend fun

Weekend was good. Worked on Lindelë a bit, started working on my photo gallery for this site (but hit a snag when both NetPBM and ImageMagick failed to generate thumbnails for uploaded images), played lots of World of Warcraft, spend quality time with Ngoc and looked at apartments. I'm looking at a place tomorrow, so I may be moving out soon. That'll be nice to get rid of the 1 hour or more commute twice a day I have to do now. Its really stressing me out and making me hate my job a lot more than I should. After all, this job is exactly what I was looking for. I guess it turns out I don't like it as much as I thought I did. So hopefully I can get the gallery working soon, and get my screenshots moved over from the old site.